Thinking outloud, my thoughts, unloading and destressing my mind, my sort of spa, afterall, it’s been a while.
Warning:
– this post may contain contradictions, afterall, life is about contradictions.
– this is a long read, you are free to click back or close tab anytime
– this post contain Tagalog words and sentences ( I may and may not include translations)
– things may not be in order
-the “you” pertains to me (the writer), as I was imagining to be talking to myself
My Random Musings
1. Have you ever worked out and suddenly you are into a new routine, then the muscles you rarely worked on, started to manginig (tremble). These are your muscles’ way of telling you hey this is a new routine and I am suddenly used.
This is how I get angry. I can count on my fingers the times I get angry, seldom. Grabe ang nginig ko (I couldn’t believe my tremble) it was like a dormant volcano erupting, with aftershocks! My tremble lasted for hours, I couldn’t control it. It was not my intention to get angry as I was just stating my point then the other party took it as an argument, I wasn’t even arguing and couldn’t care less who wins it, as long as I said my point. Did the other party got my point? No.
That’s why…
2. Don’t waste precious time, energy and muscles on getting angry. Never immortalized anger, remember nakakatanda! Avoid calling names, as soon as the intense emotion waned let it go.
3. But it’s okay to be angry but let it out of your system as soon as possible.
4. I never knew kpop could relax my nerves, although I cannot understand the lyrics the beat somehow calmed my nerves. Also massaging my face in a circular manner helped loosen my stiff facial muscles. Do it as soon as possible, a stiff face may add lines, dali! (Hurry) Masahihin na!
5. I don’t like to use the word obsess but I couldn’t think of any word that best describes this. I’m so obsessed right now to the lines on my face. I used not to worry about it five years ago and find those anti-aging products a bit absurd. Then, I saw lines on my forehead and it reminded me of my grandfather, oh my! And regretted the times when I was too tamad (lazy) to put moisturizer on my face.
6. I miss wordpress, I ommitted ed on miss because though I am writing on it now, I still miss it, it was out of my system for a long time and now I want to reintegrate it.
7. I miss writing.
8. Speaking of writing, it’s planner season once again. And I have realized that I no longer like the planner format that I used to like, it no longer suits my needs.
9. I’ve have been writing my expenses for years now but only last 2014 that I actually had a summary report on it and the results were surprising (it was shocking).
10. I was not the person that I believed I was. I thought I was frugal, self-disciplined on spending pero hindi (but no). The summary exposed that I am an impulsive and emotional spender. Huh? I couldn’t believe it at first but what was done was done. It figures everything. … nuf said.
11. If spending habits are not changed it will be a catastrophe.
12. There are now three notebooks in my bag, the weekly planner (for instant reminder), expenses notebook and mind notebook.
13. Please I have to write on them religiously.
14. I have been wanting to travel and I am encouraged to but I can’t stand airplane rides and the recent aviation events are not helping me overcome my fears. I could not imagine now how I got through my plane travels before. Sis said kasi dapat nagpapapractice ako, but my practices then were of no help. So in short, takot akong sumakay sa eroplano, I used to ask for my seatmate’s hand during take-off, let’s hold hands please. Nakakahiya, it was not my first time, but I am always like that during flights.
15. I get motion sickness everywhere, not just on airplanes. Whenever I travel and I move a bit uncomfortably I would feel dizzy, so I don’t move at all.
16. There’s no such thing as free lunch, if the offer was too good to be true, be wary
17. I was asked a question if I am confident if I will go to heaven in the after life. I said no, not because I don’t believe in God. I said no, because I believe that there is God, sino ba ako para pangunahan Siya? I believe my God is a loving God, He’s someone that I cannot lie to, iniisip ko palang alam na Niya? I know He answers my prayers hindi nga lang directly kasi kikilabutan ako pag ganon, but He answers it through people.
18. I believe in good works but doing good in exchange of something hindi, dapat kapag gumawa ka ng mabuti yung bukal sa kalooban. Do it with sincerity and never expect anything in return
19. Same also to doomsayers, even 500 years ago every time that there’s a catastrophe they say that the end is near, but none of us know when. Who are we to know? Sino tayo para pangunahan Siya? I know it could be tomorrow, next week, next year , next decade. Nobody knows so stop assuming that you know.
20. I believe that in order to live well, one must have compassion.
21. The words of pope Francis continue to linger in my head, “if you lose your ability to dream, you lose your ability to love.” It struck a cord in me. And I ask, how do I dream again? How?
22. If the other party could not handle the truth, don’t worry it’s not your fault.
23. But be careful with your truths, some truths can hurt
24. If you don’t like what’s being said, don’t shoot the messenger, it’s not their fault
25. Life is too short to be stressed
26. Writing down what I eat made me also realize that I am still a picky eater…
27. I have a recurring event that keeps on playing on my head, it was back in college when our college rector, Fr. Lucio Guittierrez, visited our class and in the middle of his talk he approached me and told me to smile. I’m too young to worry. Smile is the greatest thing in the world.
28. It is because when we smile, we can turn the world around us, and somehow invite positivity and stop negative vibes from lingering… I wish I listened to him more, I wish that I approached him more.
29.When feeling blue, and feeling a bit negative nakakatulong ang pagpapaganda. Kasi bad mood ka na nga tapos panget ka pa, panget pa suot mo, kung may bago kang nakilala eh di yun ang first impression nila sa iyo.
30. Move on, oo agad!
31. Peace is priceless and the hardest thing to achieve in this world
32. At dahil diyan wag ka ng dumagdag sa mundo tungkol sa kaguluhan instead practice inner peace.
33. the Mamasapano incident will not be this big if the president did not fail to attend the Arrival Honors ceremony.
34.The first time I cried while watching the news was five years ago, and it was about a massacre in Maguindanao where 50 plus innocent lives were taken.
35. The second time, was just a month ago.
36. I could not imagine life without prayer, or reflection
37. If by nature man is by nature good or bad? I would like to think that by nature he is good since he was made in God’s image and likeness. I still have hope in humanity (good thing hindi pa pala nawawala yun)
38. But I could be untrusting with people especially here in the metro (Metro Manila) where you must be on guard at all times.
39. I recognize and acknowledge other people’s beliefs, I also have mine and have no intention of imposing it to them and expect them to do the same.
40. I wish that I was there where pope Francis was during his visit pero okay na rin yung nakita ko siya sa TV, one with us
41. Aside from peace, a good sleep is also priceless
42. If you have no control of it, stop worrying
43. Worrying in your sleep is unhealthy, you have 16 waking hours to do that don’t do it when you’re about to sleep.
44. Change is the only constant thing in this world, if you can’t handle it, the world will not stop or wait for you to be able to adapt. Kaya nga may term na, napaglumaan na ng panahon (can pertain to both thing and person)
45. Wala kang magagawa obsolete na ang tape recorder.
That’s it for now.